What happens, when kindness becomes love!

Love is kind, I’ve heard it many times, but kindness can be transformed to love, I’m feeling first time in my life. One day me and my dad were sitting together, and I asked a question, “What happens to those who are blind, do they get married?”. My dad replied, “They sometimes don’t get married or get married with some other person having different disability. But there are few good people are there who marry some person with disability”. I was curious for finding further on this question came in my mind. I immediately started searching for people who get married to some person with visual impairment. I found a website named as “imilap” and looked at people. There I saw a girl having visual impairment, and I don’t know why but I felt too much kindness for her. I wanted to help her in any way and wanted to give lot of blessings. That day before sleeping I did meditation and asked God to bless her with lots of happiness. 

After that day, many times I thought about her and thought, how will she manage to live in her old age. Will she need to compromise and marry someone with other disability. I felt too bad and started praying for her. The frequency of thoughts started increasing day by day and then I decided to ask my dad. One day, after giving my mid semester exam for the M.Tech Part time course, I asked my dad if I can marry her. He asked me why!! I stated that I want her to be happy and who will marry her, and I like her. He disagreed with me and didn’t said more. I started to search for her contact information but couldn’t find anything on that website. 

After few weeks, I got her address from my sources. I didn’t know if it is the correct address or she is still living there, or she is married or not. I thought for a long time that what I’m doing. I didn’t find an answer other than contacting her and to know if she is married or how she is doing. I wrote a letter in simple words and a little poem with the proposal to marry her. I didn’t know if it was the right way to contact her or not. May be, she and her family don’t like it. Many questions were running in my mind but, I still posted the letter to the address I got. After two days, I tracked the letter and it was showing delivered. I was too nervous for how the person from her side will react but, I didn’t get any call or reaction from her side. I was waiting curiously but nobody called. Maybe they thought me as fake or not a decent person. Maybe she has got married or may be nobody received the letter from her side, or her address has been changed or may be her family thought if I’m a poor person or I’m an evil. 

I don’t know what happened, but still I’m trying to explore and find her contact details to know if she is happy or can she marry me or how she is doing before my dad arrange my marriage. Hmm, I didn’t ever think that a little question from my mind will make my kindness change this way. Is it love converted from kindness? I don’t know! But at last I want her to be happy and doing great in her life! I wish I could meet her in person and bless her or I could marry her. What do you say!!